Xmas

           It is almost Xmas and I am trying to come to a decision about whatnit meams to me. I go to the malls or to tthe grocery store and I see people shopping for things to make a festive occasion of this time of year. When I was a child I would compare my experience with thatof other people and I was always lacking in gifts and ativities. My immediate family was isolated and we were never included in anyting on either side of the family. My mother was a loner and I never remember having friends or associating with her family. They had gatherings but we were not included so I never had the example of what family means. I am a loner myself due to my Aspergers Syndrome. It took me years to realize this and to understand it but now, at the twilight of my life I have come to accept it Believe me it is painful an disturbing at times but something I have learned to lve with. Merry Xmas everyone.

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